we’re often so deluded of our surroundings, we forget to see what is really going on. this year, was a major time for change. for better, or worse, its hard to judge, but i’m only just starting to accept the reality. time moves so quickly, its hard to grasp a feel of the motion. one day, you’re feeling on top of the world, and the next you slide down the avalanche. its hard to just be in that frame of mind, where you truly can make yourself believe that everything is going to be alright.
everyone has to make decisions. its apart of our everyday. sometimes those decisions we make don’t warrant any justification, but we choose to make them, hoping that the outcome delivers in our favour. sometimes we need to let go, only to release the tension. finding out that the boomerang doesn’t return is a minor indication of failure. maybe it was thrown wrong, or got stuck on its journey, and is yet to fall and be found. but waiting and hoping embellishes the signs of weakness. it produces insecurity and leaves us open. so there’s the two options, forget it, or make another one and try again.
i chose to do both.
i can’t be left waiting for something that has the possibility of never returning. there’s no point feeling so hard done by, by something that just wasn’t supposed to be yours to begin with. you can rekindle how great that moment once was, but to relive it after its been caught, possibly entangled and damaged from the time that had past, it can often be impossible to try making a repair.
i have no regrets on my decisions in the past few months. letting a load off has kept me feeling positive. it’s time to focus whats on the road ahead, and stop looking back at the past as it was the only ever good thing.
wish you’d stay that little while..
love them mornings you wake up more tired than you did when you went to sleep.